how now brown cow?

am an avid collector of fear
have always been
situation getting worse

humans make me nervous
sometimes i know why

am i a hypocrite should i speak to you friendly and amicable
yet i cannot understand or want to
what you say
am not sure
what does that make me

am drained of energy
poetic justice
henry’s been found guilty as charged
red knows and i feel strangely vindicated
like it wasn’t all me
i ought to stop doubting myself
it’s putting quite a strain on me

never believing i can and am able to do something
so i mess it up
evil self-fulfilling prophecies
that rob me of will and way
that writes my fate with blight

honesty
need to have and be so
otherwise i cannot look myself in the mirror

friends, foes and all those in betweeners
talk to me
i will listen
in so far as you will not expect active participation in your life
i cannot do that
i need my space
will defend as far i can

but will be your friend
should you need one to stand quietly by your side

friendship
life seems to have ruined it
what now?

~ by mavj on March 17, 2006.